Jacking Off For Girls

An erotic essay about how I like to jack off for girls
ever since I was a teen. It’s something of a CFNM
fetish.

Back in the day when ff.net allowed erotic stories like
these, one reviewer wanted to know more about why & how
I liked to jack off in front of girls as a teenager. I
wrote most of this as a reply to her email, later I
expanded it and posted it on a few sites. It’s an essay
and not a story but it’s raw and explicit so why not
share?

I like to jack off in front of a girl for the rush of
adrenaline. It always makes me excited and nervous to
know that I’m going to get naked (while she stays
clothed) and that I’m going to show her in full my cock
and balls and all they and my body go through from the
moment my little, soft penis twitches to life to the
point when I ejaculate, shivering and shaking for her.

Most boys might be too shy or embarrassed about it,
fearing they might be humiliated by her but I’d rather
let her see what’s going on because, I guess, I’m an
exhibitionist and I don’t mind if she laughs or makes
fun.

I like to do it in my room ’cause it’s just most
comfortable there, but I can do it (and have done it)
in many other places. But in my room, the girl usually
sits on the edge of the bed so that when I stand in
front of her she gets to see everything from the right
perspective.

If I’m hard, I’ll hug her so my privates brush against
her face. That pressure on my cock, especially my cock
head, gives me an added little bit of pleasure. It all
makes my dick throb and I ask her if she can feel that.
Sometimes she does, sometimes she doesn’t, but I like
her to feel it…it’s like, I want her to feel what
just the thought of what I’m going to do for her does
to my cock.

But most of the time, if it’s a girl who’s new to me,
I’m too anxious to get an erection. I’m breathing hard
and I’m shaking, so it’s just too distracting to get
hard right away. And, as strange as it sounds, I like
it better when the encounter starts off that way.

I hold my breath when I pull my shorts down and expose
my cock and balls just inches from the girl’s eyes. I
reach under my sac and tug it just in case any of it is
caught between my legs, that way my privates hang
loose. I also tug my dick if I think it’s way too small
and soft. Its color is just a little darker than the
rest of my skin and when it’s flaccid the difference is
very noticeable.

My foreskin totally covers my cock head and its excess
droops at the tip. My sac’s looks depend on how hot or
cold it is: if it’s warm then the skin is loose and
lighter, if it’s cold then it’s scrunched tight and
forms these ridges that are rough (and yet smooth) and
very ticklish.

I stand there like that “presenting” my package to the
girl and I wonder what she thinks. I’ll ask if she
likes what I’ve got or what she sees. I get a lot of
reactions, but I like the honest ones best, even if
they might not be too “nice.” In fact, the more
“critical” the better ’cause it tells me she’s looking,
she’s “taking notes” and maybe she’ll tell other girls
about what she saw (I hope!)

I feel my cock twitch and I look down and see what I’m
“puffing” getting wider and longer with a series of
pulses. I spread my legs so I dangle even more and I
ask the girl if she’d like to cup my balls. (A lot of
times I beg even if I know she’ll do it.) I love it
when girls hold me by the balls, there’s just nothing
like it, I’m in such a vulnerable position and she
knows it and I hope she likes it.

I’ve been held a lot of ways: some like to be rough and
others soft. I like it all, but I like it even more
when she explores. Palming my scrot or bouncing my
balls or rolling my skin between her fingers, that sort
of stuff. Whatever she does, at that point my dick’s
twitching increases and I moan and groan. With each
strong throb I get longer, stiffer.

I LOVE it when the girl rolls back my foreskin! (When
she’s never seen an intact boy I always reassure her
that she’s not hurting me.) All she does it put the
tips of her thumb and index fingers onto the rim my
foreskin makes when it’s around my glans and as soon as
I feel her touching my skin I react with a shock. A
rush of adrenaline. It never fails. My heart races and
my breathing gets out of control. My eyes water and my
face controls like I’m holding back pain.

As she continues to retract my foreskin, sometimes my
knees shake or my hips buck but usually, with a few
grunts and winces, I can hold my body’s reactions back.

When a girl plays with my cock and balls this way I get
very erect and very excited right away. A feeling
starts to build up just under the tip of my dick. At
first it’s like the sensations I get just when I’m
about to pee.

Then, as I get more and more stimulated, that “wet”
feeling gets harder and harder to ignore. By the time
she’s got my whole head exposed and pulled my foreskin
as far back as it goes that feeling of urgency is there
and it’s almost impossible to keep my hands off my
cock.

Now I really begin to lose it ’cause now my dick craves
any and all attention. It just needs to be touched or
fondled or kissed or sucked or whatever the girl’s
willing to do. Basically, if it’s not being hurt it
feels really, really good.

I spread my legs further and it exaggerates my jerky
motion.

When I’m alone it takes me a while to cum but in front
of a girl who’s watching my every move I cum much more
quickly. I wrap my hand around my shaft and stroke. I
start slowly, making sure that the action takes place
around the rim of my helmet-like head ’cause that’s one
of the most sensitive parts of my body. I end speeding
the pace and as I react more erratically I get my
foreskin involved by having it roll up and down with my
fist.

That pressure at the tip of my dick gets unbearably
pleasurable. I make gasping, grunting sounds and when I
try to speak I’m so out of breath I stutter. I thrust
my head about, I grind my hips. My ball sac gets
smaller and tighter and with that a new sensation
builds inside between my legs.

Again it reminds me of peeing, like if I my bladder
was full and I really, really had to pee. That’s what
it’s almost like. And then my body tightens, my face
contorts, my teeth clench, I squeeze just like I might
if I wanted to stop a running stream of pee. That’s “my
moment” when I know I can’t hold it back anymore,
that’s when I start to cum.

I’m off in a daze when it happens, crying out things
like “oh, god,” or “I’m gonna cum” or something. For
those few moments I can’t control the way my body
reacts, I can’t stop from shaking and trembling and it
becomes almost painful to stroke my cock anymore. As I
shot my load, it’s pure male biology at work. I just
stand there, in front of the girl, totally helpless and
vulnerable.

At first I found that when I was very excited I’d shot
my load a few inches. But if I jacked off regularly
that happened less and less. My cum then tended to
dribble but I don’t mind ’cause the pleasure of it is
the same. The first couple of shorts the pangs are deep
and exhausting but when the muscles relax and the
white, hot juice drools out I get a little jolt of
euphoria.

Think of it like holding onto a really heavy weight for
a long time and then letting it go. When you’re holding
it it’s frustrating (and tiring), that’s what the start
of my cum feels like. Then when you let go of the
weight it’s relaxing and that’s what the end of it
feels like. After a few shots, though, the intensity
drops and my cock and balls go back to their flaccid
state.

Soft, again, I like to ask the girl if she’d kiss or
hold my privates. I love it when she’s so fascinated by
my body and how it works that she “explores” me without
my even asking to be touched. I ease down onto her lap,
sitting or straddling, and hold onto her waist until I
regain my strength.

All of this, from start to finish, doesn’t take more
than a few minutes. And since it’s just me jacking off
the girl doesn’t do much or say much. But by the way
she’s looking at me I hope she enjoyed the show. Some
like watching me jerk off others like watching me cum.
If I don’t tell her as I stroke then I tell her after I
cum that it’s ok if she wants to reach out and touch my
privates.

I tell her it feels so good when a beautiful girl
touches my cock and how much I just need her hands
cupping my balls or holding my cock or ticking my head
as I squirt. What I really, really love, though, is
when they laugh or giggle or get excited at the sight
of my cumming. I don’t know I love it but I do.